This week we just released the first of four segments of my documentary, “Nothing To Say,” that we have released on Tangle.com. For those of you who are following along with the documentary, I thought I’d write a weekly blog to give you a greater insight into what I was experiencing during that particular time in my life, what God was teaching me through my trial, and maybe encourage you to see Him at work in your life right now as well.
Some of you may have already seen bits and pieces of the film, or maybe you’ve seen the music video for “The Motions,” that also has footage from the film. Either way here’s the short version of what the film is about. When I found out I was going to have surgery on my vocal chords, I was devastated. Being a singer, that’s the last news you ever want to receive. The thought crossed my mind, maybe I’ve sung my last song. In the days before my surgery, I was battling several different emotions, and trying to hand all of my worry and fear over to God was proving to be a great challenge. But as I began to write in my journal, I felt like God was telling me that He was still going to use my voice, even in silence. And this is where the idea came from to turn on a camera and film this season of silence.
Little by little, my heart began to wrap its arms around the notion that God was at work in this, and He was going to use this difficult time in my life to encourage somebody else during theirs. You see the footage of my checking in for surgery, and my parents and family all came into town to be there for support. My father prayed for me before surgery and we quoted Phillipians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength.”
It’s like this, sometimes the worst case scenario becomes reality. Sometimes, you really do have to have surgery. Sometimes, your loved one really does die. Sometimes, your child really does fall into drug addiction and leaves home. Sometimes, your parents really do divorce. And when you find your life staring a worst case scenario in the eye, you find comfort in words like “I can do all things through Christ.” You remember that his strength is greater than your strength, but only when your own strength is gone can you realize that.
When your strength is gone, read Phil 4:12-13, and remember where true strength comes from.